Jenna recently wrote in her livejournal:

"I've been trying to figure out these last few days, if I ever would actually feel any form of sadness. Something. ANYTHING, to make me feel less apathetic or angry. mostly angry. i have taken to cleaning, working, EVERYTHING and anything to try to calm my infuriation that is getting worse and worse by the passing day.

But this is my question to myself...

Did I do it, to hurt him, because he hurt her (she, only knowing a percentage), fully knowing that i knew i would never get them back anyway..... or did it do it, to hurt him, because he hurt her, fully HOPING that i would get them back.  Either way, i started it all with a pureness of hatred that boiled so deep..."

This is basically some bullshit. I think it's childish and irritating. Don't get me wrong, it still hurts to read. It hurts like a son of a bitch. But it's stupid. She's also doing this thing that she does with her ex-boyfriends where she talks shit about them and makes them look ridiculous whenever she gets the chance. I don't blame her for leaving me. If she didn't feel like being with me anymore, that's that. That's all it has to be. Of course it crushes me, but I'll get over it, I'm sure. But this shit? What is it? Why? For God's sake, what makes someone just decide that it's not enough to leave someone who loves you? Did I do something so wrong that she has to make sure I'm tormented? She is cold.

Mood: stressed Music: Bell Biv Devoe - That Girl Is Poison